My Dear Son–

You are fabulously funny!  🙂  I think that you are starting to “sing” some of the “Blue’s Clues” songs from your videos.  You move your hands/arms back and forth while you jabber — mimicking Steve (or Joe) from the show.  It is great!  I’m so glad to see you start doing some of those types of things.

I’m sorry that you cried tonight when I left for my hours of “mommy time.”  I love you, but need an hour each week to re-energize.  It makes me a better mommy and more fun to be around.  🙂  (You are still constantly on my mind while I’m gone.)

We’re still waiting for test results at the doctor.  Daddy and I are getting impatient waiting — hopefully we’ll know soon.

I love you, my sweet boy!  Even though we struggle, at times, it only makes me love you all the more.

All my love,  Mommy


My Dearest Christian–

Wow!  How big you’ve gotten.  You no longer look like a baby, but more like a little man!  You are growing so quickly — time certainly does fly! 🙂

We have started taking you to a new pediatrician.  She seems to know exactly what she is doing and has many ideas of things that we can try.  Currently we are going to put you back on the no gluten diet (no what, rye, oats, barley, etc.) and adding additional supplements.  Those aren’t always your favorite and have become a huge frustration between the two of us this week.  I hope that you can get over that and there won’t be that rift between us.  I hope that you can start understanding that we aren’t trying to hurt you, but help you to reach your full potential in the midst of all of your challenges.

Christian, we love you so much and only want the best for you.  I hope that you’ll always know that deep in your being!  🙂

You have started to use markers now — we use special ones that mark on mirrors.  You love to draw while looking at yourself.  You just love to look at yourself!  So funny.  🙂  I love you, my little man!

All my love, Mommy

My Dear Christian–

What a blessing from God you are! 🙂

We are getting ready to fly to Wisconsin in a couple of weeks.  You are practicing watching your “movies” on the portable DVD player with headphones.  I’m so proud and surprised by how much you love to do this since you despise having anything (or anyone) touch your head, especially your ears.

Daddy and I are so excited that you have started to say some words.  (We just wish it was consistently.)  This morning you were watching a video about counting to 5 and we both heard you say, “Five.”  🙂  So happy!!!  A few nights ago it sounded like you said, “Hi Grandpa” to Grandpa H on the phone — that made his day!  I hope this talking continues and grows so that we can spend less time being frustrated with each other.  🙂

I love you, my son!  Remember what it says in Psalm 128:1– Blessed are all who fear the Lord, who walk in his ways.  Please trust in him all of your life.  He has given you great challenges, but will help you through them, too!

All my love,  Mommy

Dearest Christian–

I want you to know that my love for you has NOT changed even though your sister, Olivia, is now a part of our lives!  I know you were mad at me for leaving you to go to the hospital, but I came back.  I love you, even if (for now) I can’t play with you like I used to because of the wounds on my body.  They will heal and then we’ll be able to play like we did before.  I love you, even if I have to give your sister more of my attention right now because she can’t do things for herself yet.  The day will come when the two of you will be able to play together.  I’m guessing that day will come faster than either of us can imagine.  You are a wonderful son, Christian, and my love for you will never change!

All my love,  Mommy

My Dearest Christian–

You are a wonderful boy! 🙂  Your personality is really starting to bloom — you are quite a funny little man!  You are picking up some new things every week and regaining some of the old skills that you had lost.  I am so proud of how hard you are working to overcome your difficulties.  You amaze me!

Your sister is supposed to be born on Tuesday morning.  I hope that you are ready to be a big brother!  I’m curious to see how you react to her at first and how you will do with me being away and Daddy & Grandma H taking care of you.  I hope that you adjust well and that you will understand (somewhat) why Mommy has to be gone.  I want you to know that my love for you will never change, no matter who enters my life.  🙂

I pray that you will sleep well tonight, my son.  Jesus loves you!

All my love,  Mommy

My Dear “Peanut”–

You grow every day into an even more active boy!  You certainly keep me running!  🙂  After Olivia is born, maybe that will help me lose the baby weight.  🙂

You are definitely a “Florida boy.”  Now that you have figured out how to get your socks and shoes off — it is extremely difficult to keep them on you anymore.  I think you’d probably take your pants off, too, if you could figure it out.  (I’m guessing that won’t be too far away, though!)

Daddy and I had a developmental test done for you a week and a half ago.  The specialists are saying that you have developmental delays associated with Autistic Spectrum Disorder.  We are able to help you “catch up” by bringing therapists (speech and behavioral) into our home to work with you and me.  They will teach me how to help you to grow and flurish.  I’m excited to learn how to better help you.  🙂  My heart overflows with love for you, my son.  I love to watch you succeed and learn new things!

We are also moving soon.  I know this is the only place you’ve known as home, but we are selling to payoff some debt and get into an apartment that will offer us a little more room.  Eventually, you will be sharing a room with Olivia.  Sorry that we can’t give you your own room yet, but hopefully our future will allow for that.  This will give the two of you plenty of bonding opportunities.  🙂

Well, my son, nap well and know that I will always love you no matter what!  Jesus loves you, too!  🙂

All my love,  Mommy

My Dear Christian–

We have been through so much since the last time I wrote.  You have started sleeping through the night, most nights.  You have no idea how happy that has made me!  🙂

As the pediatrician advised, we have done some evaluations in the last couple of months.  We had your hearing checked — it was great — but you are very sensitive to loud noises.  You had a speech evaluation this week — we will be doing some follow-up visits so that I can learn how to help you better at home.  You have one more evaluation left, probably sometime in January.  Hopefully that will go well, too.

You are so funny these days. You love to bounce and “sing” — especially in your stroller or at church.  🙂  You have also been interested in tongues lately — yours and mine and Daddy’s.  You love to stick it out and grab it.  Daddy and I love you so very much!  🙂

We found out that in April you will have a little sister.  We’ve decided to name her — Olivia Allana.  I’m curious how you will be with her — jealous?  sweet?  loving?  angry?  I guess only time will tell.  Grandma H is going to come down and help out and spend time with you while I have to be in the hospital and/or recovering.  I hope that you will warm up to her then and have lots of fun.  🙂

I love you, my precious son!  Always know that Jesus loves you, too!  Sleep well tonight.  🙂

All my love,  Mommy