Words spoken from Christian’s mouth as we attended church this afternoon, “Perfect Jesus.  Precious Jesus.”  🙂

The importance of Good Friday…

Prayer — Two other men, both criminals, were also led out with [Jesus] to be executed.  When they came to the place called the Skull, there they crucified him, along with the criminals–one on his right, the other on his left.  Jesus said, “Father, forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing.”  And they divided up his clothes by casting lots.  (Luke 23:32-34)

Promise — The soldiers also came up and mocked [Jesus].  They offered him wine vinegar and said, “If you are the king of the Jews, save yourself.”  There was a written notice above him, which read: THIS IS THE KING OF THE JEWS.  One of the criminals who hung there hurled insults at [Jesus]: “Aren’t you the Christ?  Save yourself and us!”  But the other criminal rebuked him.  “Don’t you fear God,” he said, “since you are under the same sentence?  We are punished justly, for we are getting what our deeds deserve.  But this man has done nothing wrong.”  The he said, “Jesus, remember me when you come into your kingdom.”  Jesus answered him, “I tell you the truth, today you will be with me in paradise.”  (Luke 23:36-43)

Provision — When Jesus saw his mother there, he said to his mother, “Dear woman, here is your son,” and to the disciple, “Here is your mother.”  From that time on, this disciple took her into his home.  (John 19:26-27)

Position — From the sixth hour until the ninth hour darkness came over all the land.  About the ninth hour Jesus cried out in a loud voice, “Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?“– which means, “My God, My God, why have you forsaken me?”  (Matthew 27:45-46)

Pain — Later, knowing that all was now completed, and so that the Scripture would be fulfilled, Jesus said, “I am thirsty.”  (John 19:28)

Perfection — A jar of wine vinegar was there, so they soaked a sponge in it, put the sponge on a stalk of the hyssop plant, and lifted it to Jesus’ lips.  When he had received the drink, Jesus said, “It is finished.”  With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit.  (John 19:29-30)

Presentation — It was now about the sixth hour, and darkness came over the whole land until the ninth hour, for the sun stopped shining.  And the curtain of the temple was torn in two.  Jesus called out with a loud voice, “Father, into your hands I commit my spirit.”  When he had said this, he breathed his last.  (Luke 23:44-46)

Proclamation — And when the centurion, who stood there in front of Jesus, heard his cry and saw how he died, he said, “Surely this man was the Son of God!”

May we never doubt God’s love for us sinners!


Zzzzzz…huh?…what?…is it morning already?  [hand being pulled.  hard.]  OK.  Yep.  Just let me stand up.  [Hey, God, give me a minute…then I’ll thank you for the new day]

What do you need?  [as being dragged down the stairs]  OK.  Yep.  Let me get that for you so you don’t get hurt.  [God, just another minute.  I have to use the facilities…]

Toast?  Yep.  Just let me wash my hands.  [Um, God, I promise I’ll make time as soon as I check my email and Facebook page.]

You need what?  OK.  Hey, who’s crying now?  What happened???  [God, just a minute, there’s this crisis…]

Time for school.  Errand running.  [OK, God, I’m in town, I promise when I get home.  You know…]

Sure, I’ll read that book.  Lunch?  OK.  What do you want today?  [After lunch, OK, everyone else naps…]

Sleep well. 

Oh, I should look up that site I heard about the other day.  I’m on the net already, so I think I’ll just check my emails again.  Oh, someone wrote to me on FB… [God, you understand, right?  Just another minute, I have to get this done…]

Gotta go.  [Once we get home from school and therapy starts, then I’ll have time…]

Where are those jammies?  Snack?  OK.  Wipe?  I’m coming.  Doorbell?  Who’s here?  Hi.  Yep.  Everything’s going well.  Yep.  Downstairs.  Yeah, you heard about that, too?… [I’m coming…soon…]

I’ll have to check that out.  Shoot.  Time to start supper.  [God, I promise, after we eat.]

Bath?  OK. I’ll help.  You need what?  Sure, I’ll help you find it.  [half-hour later]  There it is!

Whew.  I need to sit for a minute.  What’s on TV?  [God, I promise, after I relax a bit and make sure that everyone is sleeping…]

Oh, God, I wanted to…

Zzzzz… [Tomorrow, I promise…]

Too many of my days zoom by like this.  I am reminded of my unwillingness to sit and listen every time I hear the end of Luke 10…

As Jesus and his disciples were on their way, he came to a village where a woman named Martha opened her home to him.  She had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet listening to what he said.  But Martha was distracted by all the preparations that had to be made. She came to him and asked, “Lord, don’t you care that my sister has left me to do the work by myself?  Tell her to help me!”  “Martha, Martha,” the Lord answered, “you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed.  Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her.”

I rat-race all day and miss the MOST important thing.  I picture Jesus shaking his head and saying these words to me, “Mama, Mama, you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed.” 

Jesus, please let me sit at your feet.  I am ready to listen.

Our third Christmas celebration landed on Christmas morning.  Very early Christmas morning.  Like 4AM.  We decided to have it before Brian went in for milking, so that I wasn’t having to fend off little hands all morning. (Although, I don’t think that would have been a problem for Christian.)

Yeah, the kids weren’t overly thrilled to be woken from sleep so early, but once I told Olivia, a number of times, that Santa had come, she came racing out to the living room overflowing with excitement.  Christian, however, just laid on Brian’s lap. Very upset about being awake and the opening of gifts.  Eventually, he got up and ran downstairs, so we opened his gifts for him then they were OK.  (If we only knew that would have been an issue ahead of time, we could have saved much time on the wrapping of gifts. 😉 )

Another enjoyable Christmas celebration.  With the glorious reminder of it being Jesus’ birthday. 🙂

We survived enjoyed our second Christmas celebration on Christmas Eve evening at the farm.  Since we were unable to attend church easily (around the milking schedule), Brian led the family in a simple, yet lovely devotion focusing on God’s love for us and our need for a Savior.  Brian’s idea was to have a candle lit after each section of scripture.  Christian’s idea was to blow out a candle after each section of scripture.  (At least it was a semi-informal setting, so the family didn’t get too thrown off by the movie rearranging taking place in the middle of the devotion that I had to redirect him to so that he wouldn’t obsess about said candles. 😉 )

After dinner, we settled in to the “front room” to open gifts.  Christian was not too happy about being there, though, he preferred being in the adjoining dining room, so we brought his gifts to him there.  However, Christian had developed a “fear” of opening presents, so we had to open them for him (usually when he wasn’t looking) and then he could enjoy what was inside.  (I figure for his birthday we can have everyone bring his gifts in reusable grocery bags.  He LOVES to go through the bags when I get home from the store and then we’re “green,” too.  😉 )

Anyway, lovely time with everyone at the farm.  🙂  (And I was so glad that we didn’t have too far to travel to get back home. I can handle the one-minute car ride. 😉 )

While they were there, the time came for the baby to be born, and she wrapped him in clothes and placed him in a manger, because there was no room for them in the inn.

And there were shepherds living out in the fields nearby, keeping watch over their flocks at night.  An angel of the Lord appeared to them, and the glory of the Lord shone around them, and they were terrified.  But the angel said to them, “Do not be afraid.  I bring you good news of great joy that will be for all the people.  Today in the town of David a Savior has been born to you; he is Christ the Lord.  This will be a sign to you: You will find a baby wrapped in clothes and lying in a manger.”

Suddenly a great company of the heavenly host appeared with the angel, praising God and saying, “Glory to God in the highest, and on earth peace to men on whom his favor rests.”

When the angels had left them and gone into heaven, the shepherds said to one another, “Let’s go to Bethlehem and see this thing that has happened, which the Lord has told us about.”

So they hurried off and found Mary and Joseph, and the baby, who was lying in the manger.  When they had seen him, they spread the word concerning what had been told them about this child, and all who heard it were amazed at what the shepherd said to them.  But Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.  The shepherds returned, glorifying and praising God for all the things they had heard and seen, which were just as they had been told.  –Luke 2:6-20

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.  He was with God in the beginning. 

Through him all things were made; without him nothing was made that has been made.  In him was life, and that life was the light of men.  The light shines in the darkness, but the darkness has not understood it.

There came a man who was sent from God; his name was John.  He came as a witness to testify concerning that light, so that through him all men might believe.  He himself was not the light; he came only as a witness to the light.  The true light that gives light to every man was coming into the world.

He was in the world, and though the world was made through him, the world did not recognize him.  He came to that which was his own, but his own did not receive him.  Yet to all who received him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God — children born not of natural descent, not of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.

The Word became flesh and made his dwelling among us.  We have seen his glory, the glory of the One and Only, who came from the Father, full of grace and truth.  –John 1:1-14

I’ve been feeling overwhelmed and undermotivated lately.  Just blah and then some.

Reading through Matthew the story of Peter trying to walk on water came to mind…

Immediately Jesus made the disciples get into the boat and go on ahead of him to the other side, while he dismissed the crowd.  After he had dismissed them, he went up on a mountainside by himself to pray.  When evening came, he was there alone, but the boat was already a considerable distance from land, buffeted by the waves because the wind was against it.  During the fourth watch of the night Jesus went out to them, walking on the lake.  When the disciples saw him walking on the lake, they were terrified.  “It’s a ghost,” they said, and cried out in fear.  But Jesus immediately said to them, “Take courage!  It is I.  Don’t be afraid.”  “Lord, if it’s you,” Peter replied, “tell me to come to you on the water.”  “Come,” he said.  Then Peter got down out of the boat, walked on the water and came toward Jesus.  But when he saw the wind, he was afraid and, beginning to sink, cried out, “Lord, save me!”  Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him, “You of little faith,” he said, “why did you doubt?”  And when they climbed into the boat, the wind died down.  Then those who were in the boat worshipped him, saying, “Truly you are the Son of God.” — Matthew 14:22-33

I know that God is in total control of my life, but I keep trying to trust in myself.  Then I get overwhelmed.  I feel like I’m sinking under the weight of my responsibilities and problems.  I need to join Peter in crying out, “Lord, save me!”